Am I really a therapist now?

I wasn’t always familiar with Gestalt therapy or its methods. In the spring of 2021, I found myself trapped in a familiar pattern—another failed relationship. Heartbroken and overwhelmed, I struggled with anxiety, sleep deprivation, and a complete lack of motivation to even get out of bed. Seeking help, I visited my doctor, who, after several conversations and tests, diagnosed me with situational depression.

Despite being a Psychology major, I felt utterly helpless, which only added to my frustration. Determined to find a solution, I explored various forms of therapy. I first turned to psychologists practicing Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), then sought guidance from a spiritual therapist who focused on inner child healing and vibrational energy work. While both approaches provided temporary relief, I still felt disconnected from my emotions, constantly searching for a quick fix.

One day, while searching online for therapists in my area, I came across someone offering Gestalt therapy. Unfamiliar with the approach but desperate for support, I booked an appointment. The session was online, and the moment I met my therapist, I felt an immediate sense of trust and ease.

Through Gestalt therapy, I learned to fully accept myself—my flaws, patterns, creative adjustments, and how I showed up in the world. I came to understand that healing isn’t a linear process. It has ups and downs—some days I felt progress, while others felt like I was starting from scratch. But I learned to sit with discomfort rather than resist it, realizing that every moment of struggle was simply another step toward healing.

In 2022, I decided I wanted to offer the same support to others who needed it. I enrolled in the Gestalt Therapy program at the Norwegian Gestalt Institute, embarking on a journey of profound self-discovery. This experience became my experimental ground—an opportunity to show up in ways I normally wouldn’t, challenging old patterns and deepening my awareness of how I related to others.

Now, as I near the completion of my third year, I can confidently say it hasn’t been a walk in the park. Many times, I found myself regressing into old habits, doubting my abilities to become a psychotherapist. But over the past two and a half years, this study has continuously reminded me to be compassionate with myself, to allow myself multiple chances. It has reinforced that I am human—doing my best each day to show up for myself and for others. Through this self-compassion, I can now extend the same understanding and support to my clients.

If you’re struggling with patterns that feel impossible to break, know that you’re not alone. Healing is not about fixing yourself—it’s about accepting yourself fully, as you are. If you’re ready to take that step, I invite you to explore Gestalt therapy and see how it can support you on your journey. Reach out, ask questions, and allow yourself the chance to grow. You deserve it.

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